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Worrying about the To-Do-List & My Journey

Updated: Jul 27, 2020

This is probably something I blog about too much…but my biggest struggle in life besides losing weight is time. I always run out of time. I always want more time. I have so much I want to accomplish, but I need more time.


Yesterday was one of those days. How can I keep doing everything I do? I hear the quotes, “Just say no." and "You are doing too much.” My grandma used to tell me that. Or, “Those that multi-task, aren’t doing anything well.” Great, that means I’m doing a crappy job at a lot of things. Lol. Or “We all have the same amount of time, it’s how we use it.” Don’t get me started on that one. I’ll have a spreadsheet put together in a matter of minutes analyzing every second of my day.


Last night I began thinking of everything I MUST do this week. Then everything I NEED to do. And I didn’t get to things I WANT to do. I was feeling overwhelmed. I noticed my old ways (habits) of worrying and obsessing setting in. I noticed my level of frustration with the kids elevate.



Me & My To-Do-List

I crawled into bed and analyzed (cause that’s what I do) my mood. It’s interesting to note how quickly worry can change so many things. It changed my attitude with my kids and husband, it changed the thoughts for the rest of the evening, it changed the food I put in my mouth. (Had a handful of chips that I probably wouldn’t have had if my mood was right.)


Worrying about anything, changes so many things! My family didn’t deserve my attitude. Without worry, I would have had much more patience with the kids at bedtime. Without worry, life is so much better!


As I am about to go to sleep, I realize how far I have come in my faith lately. These episodes of worry & bad attitude used to be an every day mood for me. I was such a perfectionist and when things didn’t go exactly right, I worried and got mad. My mood changed. My family didn’t get the best version of me. That night, I drifted off to sleep praying for peace and thankfulness to the man upstairs for always taking care of me. I asked for forgiveness for trying to take on these tasks & to-do lists on my own without His help.


Then, the next morning I woke up to a weekly email I receive from Stacey Pardoe. This was in my inbox:


“As one whom his mother comforts, so I will comfort you.” Isaiah 66:13

“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13

“God’s power is perfected in my weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

“I am with you, even until the end of the age.” Matthew 28:20


And there were more. I was reminded of all the good stuff I’ve been reading lately. I was reminded the Bible’s teachings of giving Him all our thoughts and worries. I was reminded to stop trying to do ANYTHING on my own. EVERYTHING should be done with His help.

Being constantly reminded of His power, love, forgiveness, and sacrifice for us, makes life so much easier.


I know my site and blog are supposed to be all about health and wellness. But this is the answer to my health and wellness. Every day I am growing more in peace and happiness. The inside has to transform first, and the outside will follow.


On all those weight loss journeys before this one, I tried to do it on my own. I stuck to a plan and did the work for all the wrong reasons. Wrong reasons didn’t result in lasting change.


After this little reminder, my worry grew small, and my day became much brighter. This is my life. LOL. I don’t spend days calculating calories and carbs anymore. I spend my days trusting that His plan is the best plan and He is showing me more and more of His plan each day.


I’d love to hear…how does worry affect you?

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About Me

Hey! I’m Natalie and I’m a Christian Certified Health Coach, Life Coach, Revelation Wellness Fitness Instructor & Facilitator, and a Certified Public Accountant.

I spent most of my life stuck. Stuck in a rut with health, wellness, happiness, and just not feeling that I was good enough.

My health journey was a 25-year battle of dieting, losing weight, gaining weight, binge eating, sugar addictions and always feeling that I had to drop more weight before I could go live my life.

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