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Health & Wellness Update : September 6, 2020

The first thing a health coach will help you realize is your “why.” Your “why” for wanting to accomplish a goal or dream you have set your eyes upon. A coach will use this “why” to keep you focused on your goal. My “why” has always been a problem for me. I searched for my “why” for years, but only recently found it.

Ten years ago, my “why” was to look good. I wanted 6 pack abs and I wanted to prove I could be someone based on my looks and my ability to work hard in the gym. Turns out that “why” was not meaningful to me. Yeah, I was able to transform my body, get on stage in a bikini, and finally have the body I had been working for. But that body did not bring joy deep down in my heart and that body did not last long.

Then I decided my “why” was for my kids. I wanted to run around with them, play ball, and stay active. I knew deep down that was not my true “why”. At that time, I was still trying to be somebody. Twenty years of self-doubt and body image issues left me still wanting to prove I was someone other than me.

Then about five years ago, God showed me I was good enough. I could stop chasing this idea that I had to look a certain way to be happy. My looks were not going to change my heart, but God could. God showed me in Psalms 139:13-16 that I was perfect. I did not have to struggle through the next dreaded diet or workout, those things would not "fix" me. I was already good enough.

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. Psalms 139:13-16

Being good enough for God is freedom. I can walk by a mirror and not hate myself. I can appreciate the body He has given me. As my heart became transformed, I found my why. The “why” that has meaning, purpose, and depth.

My “why” became a need to get my body healthy to do God’s work.

God instructs us to care for the temple he gave us.

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Today, this is my journey, to be healthy. Healthy to live long to do God’s work. As a planner, it is hard to admit I do not know the plans He has for me. But I am not supposed to know the plans He has for me at this time. I know that today, I need to do what I can to care for this body so that I am ready and equipped to go when He calls. This is my “Why.”

Have you found your why?

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About Me

After 20 years of dieting, frustration, self-confidence and body image issues, I found myself as a contestant in a transformation contest. I stepped on stage in a bikini and dark tan and won 5th place. Walked off stage, started eating, and gained 50 pounds in a year. I felt so defeated, lost, miserable, and out of control.  

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"Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”

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